Still Lost....

It doesn't take much. Just a simple thought...
And the sadness washes over me like a tidal wave.

There's this knot in my chest. My heart physically hurts.
Just in knowing that I've lost you. Just in knowing that you're gone.

I am so thankful that you're no longer suffering.
That you're resting. That you're at peace.
I am so thankful that I knew you at all.

I'm just still so caught off guard by the pain.
And the tears won't stop. They won't go away.
this knot in my chest. These thoughts in my head.

I miss you. I mourn my loss.... My largest to date.

I just hope that my love transcends life's boundaries.
And I hope you're watching over me.

I hope that some day my heart will heal.
And that I can carry your memory without this knot.